Movie Review! The Words

I went to the movies tonight with a friend.  It's been such a long time since I've been to the movies - it was nice :-)

The Words

Directors: 

Brian Klugman, Lee Sternthal

Writers: 

Brian Klugman (screenplay), Lee Sternthal(screenplay)

Stars:

Bradley Cooper, Dennis Quaid and Olivia Wilde

Bradley Cooper, Rory Jansen, stars as a writer struggling with his inability to write along the lines of great writers like Hemingway.  On his honeymoon in Paris, with his new wife Dora, Zoe Saldana, they purchase an old briefcase and he finds a story hidden deep within its pocket.  The complications start for Rory when he succumbs to his need of publication.

The movie opens with Dennis Quaid narrating his own book about a young writer - Rory Jansen, his new wife Dora and his struggles to write a book, he looks really old by the way - Dennis that is, and slowly tells the story about how Rory Jansen, the writer, became a world famous author.  

This movie is a definite eye opener in that it makes you think about life and your own life - especially about the things that you wanted to do and haven't so far as well as the decisions you made along the way of life's journey.

The moral of the story is about living with your decisions and moving on when a bad one is made.

Brian Klugman and Lee Sternthal managed to write a screenplay whereby an author has written about his own life experiences through the eyes of a third person.

My friend and I found it a little bit confusing and the ending is left somewhat open - allowing for a wide variety of interpretation.  Leaving the ending so open allows people to discuss its possibilities.

The movie over all was easy to watch, allowed individual thought as well as opened up topics of conversation after movie.  An uncomplicated, dramatic film with a great cast of stars.

I would give this movie a 6 1/2 stars out of 10.

What a shit day!

It's been a really rotten day today!

I'm not going to go into it, but let me leave some clues...

Clue 1

bla·sé  (blä-z) adj. 1. Uninterested because of frequent exposure or indulgence. 2. Unconcerned; nonchalant: had a blasé attitude about housecleaning. 3. Very sophisticated. or blasé [ˈblɑːzeɪ] adj 1. indifferent to something because of familiarity or surfeit 2. lacking enthusiasm; bored [from French, past participle of blaser to cloy] Clue 2

• Dizziness, feeling lightheaded
• Excess of energy, you feel you can’t relax
• Feeling cold or chilled
• Nausea
• Numbness tingling, numbness and tingling
• Trembling, shaking, tremors
• Find it hard to breath, feeling smothered, shortness of breath
• Frequent yawning to try and catch your breath
• Constant feeling of being overwhelmed
• Fear of making mistakes or making a fool of yourself to others
• Pulsing in the ears, throbbing sound in the ear(s)
• Tickle or itch in your ear that you can't seem to get at
• Difficulty concentrating, short-term memory loss
• Difficulty thinking, speaking, forming thoughts, following conversations
• Frequent feeling of being overwhelmed, or that there is just too much to handle or do
• Short-term memory impairment, can't remember what I did a few days, hours, or moments ago
• Emotionally blunted, flat, or numb
• Feeling down in the dumps
• You feel like you are under pressure all the time
• Constipation
• Dry mouth
• The thought of eating makes you nauseous
• Difficulty falling or staying asleep
• Dry, watery or itchy eyes
• Eye tricks, seeing things our of the corner of your eye that isn’t there, stars, flashes
• Spots in the vision

Clue 3

• hurtful comments making fun of you or your work
• playing mind games, ganging up on you, or other types of psychological harassment 
• withholding important info
• making impossible demands; setting you up to fail
• intimidation (making you feel less important and undervalued)  
• pushing, shoving, tripping, grabbing you in the workplace 

If you are being bullied at work you might:

• be less active or successful   
• be less confident in your work 
• feel scared, stressed, anxious or depressed 
• have your life outside of work affected, e.g. study, relationships 
• want to stay away from work 
• feel like you can’t trust your employer or the people who you work with
• lack confidence and happiness about yourself and your work 
• have physical signs of stress like headaches, backaches, sleep problems

This is how I've felt for the last 2 days...and then on deeper reflection - I have been feeling like this for quite some time - on and off!

If anyone else is experiencing similar feelings and symptoms...the links may be able to provide you some help.

What is Love?

How can you tell when you love someone?

To be honest I'm not sure. This is what I think love should be, if I'm incorrect please correct me.

To me love should be a sense of peacefulness, heightened senses and a rapidly pulsating heart. Love should bring you joy and sorrow. You should feel loved and adored and craved by the one who loves you. You should also adore, look up to and crave the one who loves you. I think admiration is a big part and also having respect for that person. I've always believed that companionship and respect far outweighed attraction, but that was until recently . I have met someone, who I think I am in love with. How do I know this? I know this because I want to spend every waking moment in their company. I want to hold him, talk to him and caress him at every opportunity. I think his snore is cute and I love the way he makes me feel. I want to fall asleep every night cradled in his arms and I want to wake up beside him every morning.

I have never felt like this before and I have certainly never acted like this before. I have always been level-headed until recently, that is. Since falling in love I have been irrational, emotional, territorial and extremely jealous. I have tried to curb these emotions, but it has taken me by surprise that I would even act like this. I never have and never thought I would. Now I'm not a hundred percent sure that this is love - maybe its pure lust, but why not run with it while I have it.

My favourite movie (When Harry met Sally) sums it up precisely: "...when you realise you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

And that's how I think I know!

Disturbed

I saw something very disturbing last night on tv and it has been haunting me ever since. NCIS: New Yord had just finished and another program was starting which featured real life crimes. The name eludes me at the moment but the contents still haunting me.

The gist of the story was that this nerdy looking 13 year old boy had brutally and sadistically murdered a 4-year-old boy. I thought that was terrible until forensic evidence went into further detail about how this pubescent 13-year-old tortured the little boy by stabbing him with a sharp rock, then pouring the boy's drink into the wounds and then sodomising him with a short stick. :-(

At this point, I could watch it no more and actually turned the tv off, but the re-enactment images and voice-over are still with me. My disbelief is how could a 13-year-old boy be so disturbed as to carry out such acts of violence? I remember when I was 13, I was still playing with Barbie dolls and care bears, whereas these days it's all about popularity, fashion and how to be cool! But I digress, what made the whole story worse is that my little boy was turning 4 the next day.

When I am down and I hear atrocities such as this, I always put people I love into the picture - which of course makes things even more unbearable. Is it just me or does anyone else feel that the whole world is going down the toilet?

Should this be the End?

I broke up with Aurelius last night. He rang back later and I think we came to some kind of agreement, but what that agreement was I am not sure. This long distance relationship is testing my patience - ask Aurelius I am not the most patient person in this world. He said he would ring back this morning and then we could talk - but no word from him yet.

It dawned on me after our telephone conversation that he was accusing me of cheating on him. I have been cheated on and would therefore never cheat on anyone. I am indignant that he would even entertain such thoughts. He asked me outright whether I did go out with the people I said I went out with. I went out to dinner with my sister on Friday night - she is suspicious of her husband cheating on her - and went out to the movies with my 21 week pregnant friend whom I have not seen since Sept 2004. This has made me think will my life be like this upon his arrival in Judea? Will I ever be allowed to go out with my friends on a girls night out? Without the questioning!

In case you are wondering what the initial break up was about, I'll give you a brief history and you can judge for yourself whether I'm over reacting or not. Aurelius lives in Rome, I (Pinky) live in Judea. We met online in Sept 2004 when Aurelius lived in Judea, and quickly became friends and then met face to face and became lovers. On a lovely Sunday drive home from Mt T I went crazy and decided that I wasn't ready for a serious relationship - recently having left my cheating husband - and thus ended our fledgling relationship. I think Aurelius was a bit cut up by this as he decided to move back to Rome shortly thereafter. We then became 'friends with benefits', a term I coined for myself as the alternate term did not appeal to me, until his departure 2 weeks later.

We continued being good friends, with Aurelius in Rome and me in Judea, until Feb 2 when I arrived in Ostia, having accepted an invitation from Aurelius to come down for his 34th birthday. Within a few hours we were back to being lovers and it felt comfortable and it felt like we were meant to be together and I was at ease with the world. The following couple of days were perfect, except that we spent time each day at Aurelius' ex-wife's house and you could cut the tension with a knife, but the only people who noticed was myself and Aurelia. Men are so ignorant!

To cut a short story long, I came back to Judea on Sunday, 6 Feb and my world has been an emotional roller-coaster ever since. Aurelius decided that he was going to move back to Judea as soon as he sorted his sh*t out in Rome, date was set for departure 18 March. Over the last few weeks that date has now been creeping slowly further and further into the future. First it changed to the weekend, to give him enough time to pack his stuff together - fair enough, no objections. Then a couple of days ago, he rings me and tells me that now he is coming the week after because Aurelia has asked him to wacth her house while she and their son go away for the weekend. Of course Aurelius says yes and I get the phone call, date has again been changed because he is babysitting the ex's house. So now he will be leaving on Tuesday, almost a week later. Now, I know I'm over reacting, but what if she comes up with another reason to make him stay? My pregnant friend thinks she is doing it on purpose, because Aurelia knew his plans, so quickly makes alternate plans to foil his. Am I just being paranoid?

And on top of all this I've had the added pleasure of worrying about whether I'm pregnant or not, but I've done a home test and it came up negative, so at least that has been settled.


By the way in case you're wondering if I'm a home-wrecker, no I'm not, apparently they have been separated now for about 2.5 years and neither of them want to get back together - so they say!

Aurelius has said that she has been acting all territorial and jealous because of me. Would she do this on purpose to keep her husband away from me? You be the judge! So this is my story so far, and it is now 8.32am Judea time and still no call/sms from Aurelius. Obviously he is not so worried about where we are headed, so I guess I shouldn't be as well. I should just sit back and relax and enjoy the ride.